So I try to follow this blog http://ohsheglows.com/2012/08/01/the-august-challenge/ and this month its Challenge month. SO I thought Hey this is a great time to do this. Its day 7 and I think I have remembered twice! lol
So Today I am going to really put my best foot forward and do this.
I struggle really hard with Anxiety and some depression. Not being on any meds due to my doctor not wanting moms to be on meds, I am a mess. Most days are good, then there are the days that I am just a wreck. " I cant do this" " I will never be ....." most common phrases.
So I am going to not just TRY but DO the challenge.
So today I am starting Day 1!
Today is:
Drum roll please............
Fear- Of not being enough.
I struggle with this a lot. I am always telling Mike sorry for not doing enough. I feel like I should be able to clean the house, organize everything and be at least cute when he gets home. Instead I am usually unless I went somewhere that day, I am in my jammies and the house is picked up but not CLEAN. I feel so lazy. I know it has to do with being 37.5 weeks pregnant but I still wish I could just GO GO GO. So today I will start the focus of being okay with being THIS.
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
Thursday, August 2, 2012
My Baby Shower
The Girls In my Church Young Womens gave me a baby shower. It went really well.
Friday, July 6, 2012
Life-Random
So today I am sitting here just thinking. I have 7 weeks left and I am starting to make the list of things that needs to be done around the house. Sad thing Is I cant do most of them. So I guess I am making a hunny Do list. Mike has been so great and helping so much. The other night I couldn't reach my feet all the way so he put the lotion on. He is doing so great.
To me its funny when he talks about going to school and work and how he thinks he will still have enough time to take Breanna to the park or pool every night, and beable to spend quality time. In my head I see the real picture and just say "ok dear". Is that bad? I know he has 25-30 HOURS of homework a week and plus work. But he is just trying to be a great dad.
To me its funny when he talks about going to school and work and how he thinks he will still have enough time to take Breanna to the park or pool every night, and beable to spend quality time. In my head I see the real picture and just say "ok dear". Is that bad? I know he has 25-30 HOURS of homework a week and plus work. But he is just trying to be a great dad.
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Play room
So after yesterdays awful evening and her getting into so much trouble, we are trying something new. I moved all her toys and books into her room. Even Set up a cool mat on the floor to play with. At first she wasn't sure but then after a few minutes she was getting the point. Every time I left the room she would follow so since we don't have a baby gate to fit the door I am using a chair. Tipped on its side it works, FOR NOW. I am hoping that she will understand more and be able to stay in her room and play.
I do want to take her out side but afternoons are really hot and there isn't a park close enough to walk too. So gratefully Mike switches to mornings next week and he can take her to the park in the afternoon before dinner and see if that helps.
I even set up a Bumbo seat as a Time out chair. We will see how that goes but at least its there and ready.
We need to get cabinet locks for the kitchen still and for a few other places but until we can do that hopefully I have figured out something.
Before:
After:
Yep thats my gate!
I do want to take her out side but afternoons are really hot and there isn't a park close enough to walk too. So gratefully Mike switches to mornings next week and he can take her to the park in the afternoon before dinner and see if that helps.
I even set up a Bumbo seat as a Time out chair. We will see how that goes but at least its there and ready.
We need to get cabinet locks for the kitchen still and for a few other places but until we can do that hopefully I have figured out something.
Before:
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Questions????????
Okay so I have questions and I figure here is a good place to put them out there.
1. Circumcise- I know plenty of people who have done it, but is it harder to keep clean or better for HIM to just leave it and deal with it?
2. How can I prepare a ONE year old to be a sister?
3. What do you do when under garments stop fitting? I only have 8 weeks left.
4. pee blocking tent or just a whip?
Okay I have many more but my brain has frozen up.
Please HELP. To me this is more personl than facebook.
1. Circumcise- I know plenty of people who have done it, but is it harder to keep clean or better for HIM to just leave it and deal with it?
2. How can I prepare a ONE year old to be a sister?
3. What do you do when under garments stop fitting? I only have 8 weeks left.
4. pee blocking tent or just a whip?
Okay I have many more but my brain has frozen up.
Please HELP. To me this is more personl than facebook.
Breanna Bear
How could I not love this face!
She never stop stealing our hearts!
One of the happiest days in our lives! The day we became a family FOREVER!
She started out so small and amazing, most days she still is!
I can't believe she is 1 year old! She is changing and learning so fast. Walking, Talking, laughing and crying. Man it has gone by so fast! I am so excited to watch her grow this next year. So much will still change!
Wow talk about a crazy 8 months
So now that life has changed again and we are expecting our baby girl in August, I have really had to stop trying to plan anything! The only thing I can plan or try to is our cleaning schedule and Breanna's schedule. Between Mike starting school- which I am so happy he is doing and I know it will be worth it; and Breanna turning ONE and starting so many new things and phases, to now a baby. Can i just say I still am in somewhat denial! I often look at my belly and rub my belly to feel its real. I love it when she moves and flops and kicks, It never fails to make me smile. Even when I am in bed trying to sleep.
So now I am going to start blogging for REAL as much as possible. There is so much going on and I am really bad at writing a Journal so here is my thoughts.
Life has been NUTS to say the least! But I have o say first off that I am so grateful that we are all HEALTHY! Since moving to Texas we have had to adjust to a different life style. Less money more bills and Trying to make it to a place we can call home for now.
When we first got here I was very depressed and Homesick for Japan. I loved our life there and our friends, even though most of them had moved. I wanted my life back, my schedule, my energy! I felt so blah for about 2 months and all I wanted to do was SLEEP! So every time Breanna went to bed so did I. I am just grateful she is a good sleeper. Then in about March I met some friends and slowly started socializing and hanging out. can I say that makes a HUGE difference! So now life is good.
Most of you know about Breanna's Head condition, that was scary at first then now just a pain to keep it on her head. She has to go in every 2 weeks to check the fitting of her Cranial helmet and make sure its doing it job. Can I say she HATES it! At first she was a champ then she figured out how to undo the dang thing and now wont leave it alone. I have pictures of it but I cant find my camera cord. I am calling tomorrow to see if they can make the Velcro stronger so that its harder to take off.
She is doing great though. She has taken 3 steps and loves playing and reading books. I often am amazed at how smart she is. Today she said BALL after She picked up her Ball. So now she says
"Mama, dada, Ball, All done, More, HI and NO" By the way No was NO Mama. Isn't that great!
I love her so much and cant imagine life without her.
So now I am going to start blogging for REAL as much as possible. There is so much going on and I am really bad at writing a Journal so here is my thoughts.
Life has been NUTS to say the least! But I have o say first off that I am so grateful that we are all HEALTHY! Since moving to Texas we have had to adjust to a different life style. Less money more bills and Trying to make it to a place we can call home for now.
When we first got here I was very depressed and Homesick for Japan. I loved our life there and our friends, even though most of them had moved. I wanted my life back, my schedule, my energy! I felt so blah for about 2 months and all I wanted to do was SLEEP! So every time Breanna went to bed so did I. I am just grateful she is a good sleeper. Then in about March I met some friends and slowly started socializing and hanging out. can I say that makes a HUGE difference! So now life is good.
Most of you know about Breanna's Head condition, that was scary at first then now just a pain to keep it on her head. She has to go in every 2 weeks to check the fitting of her Cranial helmet and make sure its doing it job. Can I say she HATES it! At first she was a champ then she figured out how to undo the dang thing and now wont leave it alone. I have pictures of it but I cant find my camera cord. I am calling tomorrow to see if they can make the Velcro stronger so that its harder to take off.
She is doing great though. She has taken 3 steps and loves playing and reading books. I often am amazed at how smart she is. Today she said BALL after She picked up her Ball. So now she says
"Mama, dada, Ball, All done, More, HI and NO" By the way No was NO Mama. Isn't that great!
I love her so much and cant imagine life without her.
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