Found my new Favorite cookies!

Okay so I am the type of person that if I am going to make a life change it has to be worth it. Mike and eat great food and feel good at the end of the day.... Then to add to it I found a great Recipe for " The Ultimate Vegan Oatmeal raisin cookie". Now Mike LOVES oatmeal raisin cookies so I had to get this right! HMMMM I DID! Ohhhhhhh I just want to make these and keep them in the fridge. But I wont!
Mine where Fatter but AMAZING!
Our Favorite Dessert that I dont feel one once guilty for is..........
Banana Blizzards! Can You say OHHHHHHHH FREAKIN YEAH!
We have even just done Banana and cherrys.. again YUMM.
Tomorrow We are eating.........
Chipotle basil corn chowder...... with a yummy salad on the side. Perfect for another rainy day.

Day 4

Some people think I am crazy for eating like a Vegan. So here is why i am doing it. We have been eating alot better in the past 2 years but I am done being on the fence and just trying to eat healthy. I wan to be healthy inside and out. Healthy to me means- feeling good in my skin, the desire to eat great food and not have to count the calories or feel guilty! A glow that you see in others that you have in yourself. Healthy to me is happiness in a way.
I love eating Banana blizzards and not feeling guilty, and Mexican tortilla Pie and so many other great foods that I feel good after, during and even get excited about cooking it.
So here s what we had for dinner last night......... Mexican tortilla pie!

I cant say enough how amazing it was! Ohhhh How I wish I could upload the pictures but Blogger is being dumb and not uploading them!
Tell me how you are and what you think about the work Healthy?

Vegan

So over the past 1.5 years we have drastically changed our eating habits. We went from eating MEAT just about everyday and sometimes a few times a day to....... 1 time a week or if I can help it none. Mike is still getting there I am doing better but I have given myself a 30 day Challenge. Complete Vegan 30 days! Today was day one. I have done really well. No dairy, No candy, NO MEAT, No crap!

I love looking at Vegan blogs and just being amazing at how good the food taste! I am excited about having a VEGAN Thanksgiving! HMMMMM cant wait! So today I ate yummy organic Crispy rice cereal with Almond milk, which I prefer rice Milk. Then For lunch.............
I ate it without the chesse!
http://glutenfreegoddess.blogspot.com/2006/10/sweet-potato-black-bean-enchiladas.html

Then I took a nice long sunday nap, and ate a wonderful Japenese Apple for a snack. Now I am going to figure out what to make for the Three of us, Ed Thomas, Mike and I for dinner. But I know that this is what is for dessert!Apple Strawberry Vegan Breakfast Crisp....... OHHHHHH SO GREAT! We have been eating it for dessert and I think someone just ate it all day. One of the guys.... I am thinking BOTH!This is dinner easy Spaghetti with kidney beans, crushed tomatoes and sauce! So good!

Learning how to breathe

Lately I have been so much happier and well balanced even on my Period. I feel so much more at peace with things, even though there is still ALOT going on I just feel at ease. I know that heavenly father will take care of things and some how we will understand his will.
Last Wend. we found out that Breanna was denied command sponsership, which simply means she cant stay for more then 90 days and we dont get paided extra for her to be here and we only gets Tricare standard which mean that the insurance doesnt pay 100% of the bill. So we have a few options and in the next 1-2 weeks we should find out what is going to happen. All I know is that it will all work out!
Excepting myself in the mirror has been very difficult since I was 13 and hormones kicked in. I was always the pudgy big boobed teen, and very low self esteem. I even remember thinking about killing myself when I was 14 to just have to stop thinking I was fat and stupid. Luckily I didnt and moved on and somehow made it to 31! How is it that we think that when we are in our teen years that we feel like life will never move on or be any better. Now looking back I wish I would of just held my head up high and said " screw you I am me and thats ok", but hey now I am me and thats great. Today we went to the base beach at the lake and took pictures of Breanna's first time at the beach, in those pictures I dont great but I love the happiness in my eyes and that even though I still have 50+ pounds to go that Breanna has a mommy that loves her. I could look at the pictures like I have done for so long and said " delete them, I am fat no way is she seeing me like this later in life!" I am glad I can just say Ohh well At least I am in the picture and not the one taking the picture. Memories last till they are forgotten and mothers love a lasts forever.
Check http://breannarose.shutterfly.com/pictures/303 to see what I mean.

Budget

The word BUDGET sometime can mean "0 you are not managing our money right", I want a budget; "or umm where the hell did all our money go". Well in our case its where the hell did our money go! We haven't bounced or gone negative but man it gets close. So tonight I sat down and did a budget its a least a rough draft. What budget forms do you use? What has worked for you guys? So help me out what do you do?

Her room is done!

Wow 19 days later!

Okay it doesn't seem like 19 days later! It feels more like a week! Not kidding a week. Okay so I have made a promise to myself that I need to blog more because I have to be able to write my thoughts somewhere and get input, NOT ON FACEBOOK!

Life as a mom is new and fun but mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually tiring sometimes. We are actually doing way better now that she is older. In the beginning Ugggg so tired but we made it. Now she is 8 weeks and 2 days old and she is sleeping better except every few days she decides to grow so then she is up every 2-3 hours at night instead of every 5-6 like normal. I have finally started to get deep enough in sleep to start dreaming again, that was glorious the first morning ! I dont know why but after 8 weeks and no dreams the first dream is great even thought it sucked because of the dream/nightmare, but to dream meant I got good sleep for 3 hours.

Right now I am doing " The Master Cleanse" again, I have done it before and I so needed it again. After 9 weeks of eating CRAP, I needed it. I feel better today then yesterday. I am excited to kick the sugar binge and grabbing candy just because and constantly wanting ice cream. It feels good to know that I will have control over my cravings and that I can say no to the CRAP. My friend Tamara is doing it with me and she is doing great, she has done it to the tee. I, not so much. The first few days before you start you are supposed to have green smoothies for 2 days and then juice (homemade) the day before. She did ,I didnt, so yesterday my blood pressure went down, my blood sugar went down and I was dizzy and weak most the day but today I am doing so much better. I feel good and not Dizzy at all. The only problem of doing this cleanse is the lemons. The Commissary has crappy produce most the time so 8 out of 18 of my lemons where bad the next day. Very frustrating. But I went back today and got more hoping they dont go bad by tomorrow. So frustrating!

I am so grateful I am a mom and lately for scripture time at night Mike and I are looking up Talks from out church website www.lds.org and the last 2 nights we have read about motherhood. I feel good knowing that I am doing a divine thing. That I get to raise Breanna and our future kids in the Gospel of Jesus Christ. To teach them how they should live and why. It really helped to feel validated in my feelings as a new mom to see that our church supports and helps us by giving us uplifting talks to feel good and feel like I can do this no matter how tired I am.

Okay not day 2

Wow this weekend has been a busy one. I am in this new clean out everything mood. De-Junking and organizing, the only problem is my house has things everywhere! Tomorrow I am finishing it up and going to be done with it! Breanna has been a champ as always! She is such a good baby, today she was talking to me! It was so sweet! She is so strong she already scoots I think I may have a walker by the time she is 8 months old. She just wants to be on the move even in her sleep. We have to swaddle her just so she stops scooting all over the cradle!
She is doing so well to the adjustment of the cats and weather. She loves laying in front of the fan and loves her swing. Tonight was the first time she noticed things where moving above her head in the swing, she just watched till her eyes couldn't stay open. It was really cute.
We are so blessed!
Ohh part of cleaning out stuff we have 5 black trash bag full of clothes and blankets left from old friends that didnt want them. The blankets anyways! Time for the thrift store except the jeans and T shirts so I can make my first Jean and T shirt quilt.
It feels good to get ready to move, I love moving! No I really do, I love the new places and new house! I cant wait to start redecorating and new place. I LOVE JAPAN! Please dont get me wrong but I am a mover and I have been itching to move for a year! So exciting! Plus the place we are going has a huge lake and COSTCO! Plus Target! Hello no more waiting for things to be shipped and no more small portions of food for so much money! Hello States!
Plus I like Texas, they dont put up with Crap! My kind of place. Ohhh and I can carry a gun and its legal! I am seriously wanting a hand gun when we get to the states, Mike and both want guns so we can go shooting and to have something to protect us. I know I am crazy and guns are dangerous, only people who dont know how to use a gun and those who think they are bad ass's are dangerous! I am pro Gun!
I am so used to living in safe places that I am not taking any chances! Plus we will have a super safe gun safe! Even the paint ball guns will go in the safe just so the kids dont get playing with things they shouldnt. I think I covered all the bases on the gun. But if you have a opinion go ahead tell what you think about owning a gun.
I could honestly see myself living in texas, hmmmmm maybe we should keep that in mind. I guess we will find out soon.
Well I should be off to bed, I have to get up and workout then finish the house and be a good mom all night for feedings, all though she only eats every 5 hours between 9 pm and 9 am! Its so nice ! Night!

New Life

So I have decided that I need to blog so I can let out so many things that I dont want to sit and type on face book. Plus Keep everyone up to date and how we are doing. Life has been crazy, stressful, happy, sad, crazy and peaceful and that was just today!
As time has gone on and Breanna Rose is almost 6 weeks old I am finding out more and more about myself and how far I need to come to be the mom I want to be. I find myself constantly double guessing myself and how much time and holding I should be giving Breanna. I am learning every minute of everyday. So I come to all of you with all my issues and needs and joys.
Tomorrow starts day 2 of blogging our crazy life!