Okay it doesn't seem like 19 days later! It feels more like a week! Not kidding a week. Okay so I have made a promise to myself that I need to blog more because I have to be able to write my thoughts somewhere and get input, NOT ON FACEBOOK!
Life as a mom is new and fun but mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually tiring sometimes. We are actually doing way better now that she is older. In the beginning Ugggg so tired but we made it. Now she is 8 weeks and 2 days old and she is sleeping better except every few days she decides to grow so then she is up every 2-3 hours at night instead of every 5-6 like normal. I have finally started to get deep enough in sleep to start dreaming again, that was glorious the first morning ! I dont know why but after 8 weeks and no dreams the first dream is great even thought it sucked because of the dream/nightmare, but to dream meant I got good sleep for 3 hours.
Right now I am doing " The Master Cleanse" again, I have done it before and I so needed it again. After 9 weeks of eating CRAP, I needed it. I feel better today then yesterday. I am excited to kick the sugar binge and grabbing candy just because and constantly wanting ice cream. It feels good to know that I will have control over my cravings and that I can say no to the CRAP. My friend Tamara is doing it with me and she is doing great, she has done it to the tee. I, not so much. The first few days before you start you are supposed to have green smoothies for 2 days and then juice (homemade) the day before. She did ,I didnt, so yesterday my blood pressure went down, my blood sugar went down and I was dizzy and weak most the day but today I am doing so much better. I feel good and not Dizzy at all. The only problem of doing this cleanse is the lemons. The Commissary has crappy produce most the time so 8 out of 18 of my lemons where bad the next day. Very frustrating. But I went back today and got more hoping they dont go bad by tomorrow. So frustrating!
I am so grateful I am a mom and lately for scripture time at night Mike and I are looking up Talks from out church website www.lds.org and the last 2 nights we have read about motherhood. I feel good knowing that I am doing a divine thing. That I get to raise Breanna and our future kids in the Gospel of Jesus Christ. To teach them how they should live and why. It really helped to feel validated in my feelings as a new mom to see that our church supports and helps us by giving us uplifting talks to feel good and feel like I can do this no matter how tired I am.
Life as a mom is new and fun but mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually tiring sometimes. We are actually doing way better now that she is older. In the beginning Ugggg so tired but we made it. Now she is 8 weeks and 2 days old and she is sleeping better except every few days she decides to grow so then she is up every 2-3 hours at night instead of every 5-6 like normal. I have finally started to get deep enough in sleep to start dreaming again, that was glorious the first morning ! I dont know why but after 8 weeks and no dreams the first dream is great even thought it sucked because of the dream/nightmare, but to dream meant I got good sleep for 3 hours.
Right now I am doing " The Master Cleanse" again, I have done it before and I so needed it again. After 9 weeks of eating CRAP, I needed it. I feel better today then yesterday. I am excited to kick the sugar binge and grabbing candy just because and constantly wanting ice cream. It feels good to know that I will have control over my cravings and that I can say no to the CRAP. My friend Tamara is doing it with me and she is doing great, she has done it to the tee. I, not so much. The first few days before you start you are supposed to have green smoothies for 2 days and then juice (homemade) the day before. She did ,I didnt, so yesterday my blood pressure went down, my blood sugar went down and I was dizzy and weak most the day but today I am doing so much better. I feel good and not Dizzy at all. The only problem of doing this cleanse is the lemons. The Commissary has crappy produce most the time so 8 out of 18 of my lemons where bad the next day. Very frustrating. But I went back today and got more hoping they dont go bad by tomorrow. So frustrating!
I am so grateful I am a mom and lately for scripture time at night Mike and I are looking up Talks from out church website www.lds.org and the last 2 nights we have read about motherhood. I feel good knowing that I am doing a divine thing. That I get to raise Breanna and our future kids in the Gospel of Jesus Christ. To teach them how they should live and why. It really helped to feel validated in my feelings as a new mom to see that our church supports and helps us by giving us uplifting talks to feel good and feel like I can do this no matter how tired I am.
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